Living a Beautiful Life

I love how things in my life all come together at once.
I have never really been that person who reads something or hears someone speak and says "That changed my life." I have always been the person who reads stuff and hears people speak and says "That is exactly what I have been thinking." I mean obviously that doesn't happen ALL the time... I think you get my drift.


So my Mother let me borrow this book that is pretty much about living life.
And it is so funny, cause in the last year or so of my life.
I have really come to struggle with what it means to be "Living Life"

When I think about it, So often I think...
Do people like me? do they want to hang out with me?
Do they think I am a person full of Love, Peace, Joy, Compassion and all that Jazz?

I have really come to place where (this is going to sound selfish) but it is (and needs to be) about me. If I can't love myself and look in the mirror and inside myself and see the beauty... Than I won't really see it or believe it when you say it.
I HAVE to believe it for myself.
I have never really been that insecure girl (I give it to the fact that I am surrounded by very strong beautiful people) But I have been in relationships where someone is always looking to you to validate them. And let me tell you it is exhausting. Because trying to be strong and positive for someone and yourself CONSTANTLY wears you out, and creates tension and all sorts of other issues (but that is another story)

Today at work we were talking about how people perceive you just in the physical.
And how it really comes down to you feeling that you look good.
If you are having an ehh kindof day, and try to wear something that isn't comfortable or doesn't make you feel good. Than people are going to notice.

There is this quote from Audrey Hepburn that I love "I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls." I Love that. it is so true... I am always drawn to people who are happy, who seem to be loving life.

And it really all starts inside.
If you are that person that struggles with insecurity... Find the beauty within.
Find the things about yourself that you love. cause I promise they are there. whether it be your hair, or your laugh... the way you handle stress. Whatever it is, find it and fall in love with yourself, damn it!

I get SOOOO fed up with the crap that is shoved down our throats about who is and isn't beautiful. We are ALL beautiful. don't believe the shit that the world puts out there.
(sorry for the mini rant... I just needed to say that.)

Live Love, and Love Life.