So I have this horrible... I guess you would call it habit.
but it isn't really a habit. it is more like a flaw.
I tend to take a person or trip or time period of my life.
and for whatever reason, if there is pain or hurt there.
that is all I will remember.
I allow myself to shut out the the good times, and things
And only remember the bad.
I have had people bring up topics, whether it be a person from my past or a trip I took,
and I ALWAYS bring up the negative.
It has only recently come to my attention that I do this.
so I have chosen to try to remember the good.
I don't want to be some bitter old lady who is always speaking badly of people.
it isn't fair to take one situation and just label that person and hateful or dishonest.
and it definitely isn't right to share that hurt and pain with everyone.
it is like spreading bad rumors.
So I am trying hard to take those things that I seem to have blocked out.
The fun and laughter that went along with the hurt and pain.
I am not trying to forget the pain because I know how much I have learned from it.
I am just trying to find a balance in my memories.
So here is to remembering the good times.
may I never forget.
Here, here!
ReplyDeleteHmm, I wonder if this is a genetic flaw? and yes, I do think it is a flaw but I have done the same thing in my life ... either remembering only bad or not remembering at all.
But I think there is something powerful in remembering the good and making that our focus. Positive energy begets positive energy. Can you admit realistically that it wasn't all peaches and cream? Yes and like you said, you can learn from that but it isn't usually the sum and whole of our experiences.
Love you and the lessons you are learning!